For this week's post, I thought of jotting down the course of my day. Yes, all the good and ugly will be posted. Maybe it will keep me a bit accountable. :)
Today is a Wednesday. I had a decent night sleep last night and my alarm clock went off at about 4:30 am. Did I wake up with a smile on my face? No! I hit snooze until about 5:00 am. I woke up thinking about the word of God. Yeah, this is how the Lord gets me stirred up to actually wake up. I start thinking of waking and then scriptures come to mind. I then feel encouraged enough to wake up and seek those scriptures out. Thank you Lord for being the best alarm clock ever! :) If I ignore it...He quits waking me and then I have weird dreams. Yeah, I know, It's strange.
Anyway, I woke up at around 5 am and just sat on my couch with my two bibles in hand (KJV and NKJV). The quiet of the morning was so so nice. I love my mornings! I took snooze a bit and then I prayed a little. But most of time the Lord just spoketo me in my heart and yes, I speak to him with my thoughts. You know what I'm saying? I am thinking and through these thoughts I commune with the Lord. I do this and speak with my actual voice also. Does this sound strange? Oh, I hope not. :)
I flipped my bible over to Titus and started to read but the Lord told me He wanted to talk. I knew in my heart that if I tried reading the bible I wouldn't really get anything. I know that sounds rather odd but when the Lord wants to "talk" you know it's best to listen. He talked to me about things that have been bothering me in my heart. I realized I wasn't having faith. Which then turned into a conversation about knowing Him and I wondered or rather asked Him how many people actually even understand who He really is. Interesting conversation I had with the Lord this morning.
At 5:30 I made myself coffee and breakfast and tuned into my favorite bible study. I do this online. I listen for about 45 minutes. Today the topic of study was called "Self-Centeredness the Root of all Grief". Ouch! Yep, I was convicted. I realized a lot of the issues I've been dealing with have been related to pride. If you met me you wouldn't think that it was so. When I mean by "pride", I don't mean I am better than everyone else. Pride is simply being self-centered. Focused to much on "ME" and my issues or my problems or my house and how it isn't this or that. You get my drift? Oh read Proverbs 13:10, it says....ONLY pride is the source of contentions, etc...
At 6:30 I went online and checked my emails and my blog comments. Went on a few blogs and made a few comments. Oh, back track at bit.....I woke Moriah up since she makes breakfast for everyone in the morning. SO, so thankful for this! The ugly part of this morning was Moriah and I got into it a bit. I was typing this very post and she comes to me and wants to check something out on our one computer and I get upset because she is taking "MY" time away from posting. LOL. Here is the prideful me getting in the way. She was upset at me and of course I said "You shouldn't speak to your mother this way. You know this is my time!" I know, I was nasty. :( I'm ashamed to say.
Just now she came up to me and said she was very sorry for acting the way she did and I apologized also. It is 7:30 am This is all I will post as of now because my husband is starting to wonder when I am going to get off this computer and tend to the house. The other kiddos are going to start waking soon and I need to get lots done.
My goals for this morning up till lunch:
clean up my bedroom
get the little boys dressed
Put a load of laundry in
fold some laundry
Most likely iron my hubby's shirt
clean up the kitchen mess (since Moriah cooks, I told her I will clean up)
This should take me up to lunch. I will try to update later today on my day.
So enjoy your morning!