The picture above is of The Greenbrier Resort in West Virginia

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Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Taking Time to Sit at His Feet

Believe me...I am getting better.

You might ask....what are you talking about?

I am talking about my diligence in managing this large family of mine. Boy, it can be hard work. I tend to sometimes shut in and try to DO IT ALL myself. I then walk around grumpy because NO ONE IS HELPING. Hello? Of course no one is helping because I haven't asked.

WHY DO I HAVE TO ASK? DON'T THEY SEE HOW HARD I'M WORKING!! THEY SHOULD KNOW BETTER?

These are my daily mind struggles. I know for some of you this might be so easy to handle. Truly.... I can now relate..... just a bit to how my mother might have felt. She rarely asked us to help and then she would walk around grumpy and YELLING at us for not helping. You know what? I tend to do the same. I remember refusing to be like my "mother". I REFUSED to manage the home like her. Don't get me wrong, I love my mom :) She just didn't know how to teach us to do basic housekeeping.

I find myself doing the same thing. Yes, I have dusted my CHORE PACKS off for the millionth time! Yes, I have the kids help!! But I tend to not be consistent. I KNOW! I KNOW! I KNOW! CONSISTENCY is a MUST. But why do I keep stumbling. LORD HELP!!

Guys, I hate to be so negative but I am just sharing my struggles as a mom. I have read the books, I have done the chore charts, I have read almost everything that is out there.!! I think I have some deeper issues to deal with. :( Oh, boy....now I have to do some deep soul searching LOL!

I know the Lord in His great mercy is sitting on my couch just watching me walking around unorganized and not knowing where to begin. He probably has a smile on His face and just waiting for me to come to Him and let Him give me the answers I've been searching for.

"Lord, I've been to you so many times. Why can't I get it!! What is the deal with me! I need to obey, I know!!"

I haven't allowed the Lord to really minister to me in this area. It's like you have a child that you obviously know needs to be taught in say cooking, and when you instruct him or her, they are not really receiving all your instructions. They are so quick to get up and go. Well.....this is me!! Yep, I will sit at His feet about this issue for so long (a few minutes) and not allow Him to minister to me completely. I get up and go before He is finished instructing me. Do you see the picture I am trying to paint? So when this "child" tries to make the meal, they mess up the recipe and then comes crying because they "messed it all up". Reality is that they didn't mess it ALL UP, they just added that extra cup of sugar or forgot to put in the egg.

I need to take the time to sit at His feet and have Him minister to me. As I am typing this, I'm thinking "When am I going to have the time to do this." Ooops!! Instead of typing on this blog, I guess I should have been with the Lord. Actually, typing this out has helped me see my problem. :)



Thanks for hanging in with me and following my life :)

Love Ya,

Chris

4 comments:

Cheesemakin' Mamma said...

Sometimes I can feel the same way. I really appreciate your transparency. I'm sure we can all relate. I love following your journey. That is exactly what it is - a journey. Journeys involve the good, the bad and the ugly. I find blogging helps me process things, too. Glad God spoke to you today!

Love,
Jackie

Mrs. Taffy said...

Hello Friend! You are SO Wonderful! Do you know why? Because you even care! Most women don't even care to find out why or how...I'm so proud of you for your honesty, for admitting your struggle, for allowing the Lord to teach you and move you forward! Clearly the Lord loves you...Look at all those beautiful children! I sometimes wish I can be MORE relaxed about things! :o)
Blessings,
Carissa

Stacie, A Firefighter's Wife said...

Thanks for your honesty. You are NOT alone!

I struggle with the exact same thing. I want my house to run like a well-oiled machine. But there is just one problem. My children have their own agenda and a little thing called a sinful-nature!

My general tendency is to turn into a drill sgt. and start barking orders to everyone. It frustrates them and I.

I think part of what I need to do is ask the Lord, what should I do first? Then with KINDNESS on my tongue implement the plan to my children.

I've tried so many different charts and things. Consequences have changed, but now I'm to the point where if they don't get their chores on time (by 8:30 a.m.) they will get 15 minutes off of their bedtime for each chore left undone or done sloppily. This puts the responsibility on them and I am down to one inspection time (8:30).

I know it's frustrating, but remember that you are training your children to help you, and we need to work with them as a team to run a house effectively with a large family.

I am constantly saying, "Let's work as a team!"

Stacie, A Firefighter's Wife said...

This is what I love about you, you are real and you don't have all the answers. You remind me of...me!